Well, today was the big day… lecture and workshop… and truthfully, the turnout was low and disappointing.  I did well enough… spoke without notes or a podium, filled the hour with both new and tested material, got response from the audience, and was thanked by several attendees afterwards and told that they had learned some things they […]

Tomorrow is the big day… sharing New Consciousness air the Cultural Integration Fellowship.  I have had such mixed emotions.  Should I be concerned?  Does it really matter who shows up… or how I do… or what comes out of it?  No.  Not really.  As long as I embody the awareness I am trying to impart […]

I have been going over the upcoming talk in my mind… ideas I want to cover in some kind of reasonable order.  However, I am hesitating to write it down because I don’t want to follow a script.  It has to flow, has to be natural.  I have to trust that “I” knows what It’s […]

Feel much better this morning, good enough to go out and do my hospice stuff. And now, eight hours later, I have gone to my meeting, visited eight patients, done the write-ups on the computer as required… and actually feel great.  I wonder if the very high heat of yesterday played a part in how I […]

I have suddenly come down.  For some reason I woke up this morning wondering what I’m doing talking and teaching about universal consciousness.  Clearly this means that I have slipped out of the ‘I’ mode and back into my I, the place where I see myself as this small separate being rather than as an […]

Okay.  Time to get serious.  Focus.  Focus.  Focus.  Feel “I” within my I.  Become ‘I’.  Not just when I think about it, but all the time. Time to live New Consciousness. peace……ag

Went to the opening day ballgame today… on TV.  The Giants won going away.  Go Giants. Yesterday, in the newspaper, a sports writer wondered about why the Giants have been winning the World Series only in even numbered years.   “Is that part of the reason for the even-year phenomenon?,” she asked, “that the Giants hear it […]

I have begun letting the talk come over me.  It is coming into focus.  I must speak impromptu, from the heart, improv.  I’m not worried.  I’m good at it. All I need to do is make a quick little map of the things that need to be covered. It will all fall into place on […]

An interesting expression of New Consciousness.  I have a friend with cancer who needs to be driven to a doctor’s appointment in Davis, CA, over near Sacramento.  It’s a several hour drive from the Bay Area and should take up an entire day. Although I have the time and the availability, my first thought was, “I don’t […]

Happy April Fools Day.  I wonder the meaning to the fact that my parents were married on April 1. What does that say about me?  But I digress. I have recently thought of an interesting project that would make a cool book. A large scale study to answer the question, “Why do I get high?” […]