I have been going over the upcoming talk in my mind… ideas I want to cover in some kind of reasonable order.  However, I am hesitating to write it down because I don’t want to follow a script.  It has to flow, has to be natural.  I have to trust that “I” knows what It’s doing and that if I can be ‘I’, it will all work out as it should.

I have also realized that I haven’t done any planning for the workshop… the hour and a half session I am offering after the talk for anyone who wants to examine their own self from the perspective of New Consciousness.  Perhaps the best thing to do, other than following my own advice and letting “I” do It’s thing, would be to have the people work as a group and come up with joint ideas and projects based on a combination of their own individual ideas and talents as a demonstration of how working for the greater good might work.  It’s a thought.

peace…..ag

Feel much better this morning, good enough to go out and do my hospice stuff.

And now, eight hours later, I have gone to my meeting, visited eight patients, done the write-ups on the computer as required… and actually feel great.  I wonder if the very high heat of yesterday played a part in how I felt?

Also, I am no longer pushing the talk.  It either makes it or it doesn’t.  I don’t care.  Either way I will do my best, and sit back and see what happens.  There now… I feel much more relaxed.

peace………ag

I have suddenly come down.  For some reason I woke up this morning wondering what I’m doing talking and teaching about universal consciousness.  Clearly this means that I have slipped out of the ‘I’ mode and back into my I, the place where I see myself as this small separate being rather than as an element of the Universal “I”.  This, of course, is where most people see themselves and why I am speaking and giving a workshop this coming Sunday… for the expressed reason of changing this view of reality that most of us carry around.

From the perspective of I…  that’s a lot of chutzpah.  From the perspective of ‘I’… it’s what I am designed to do.  Aargh.

peace……..ag

Okay.  Time to get serious.  Focus.  Focus.  Focus.  Feel “I” within my I.  Become ‘I’.  Not just when I think about it, but all the time. Time to live New Consciousness.

peace……ag

Went to the opening day ballgame today… on TV.  The Giants won going away.  Go Giants.

Yesterday, in the newspaper, a sports writer wondered about why the Giants have been winning the World Series only in even numbered years.   “Is that part of the reason for the even-year phenomenon?,” she asked, “that the Giants hear it so often they start to believe it?”  Here’s part of what I wrote to her.

“Actually, that is a big part… not just because the team hears it, but because the fans hear it and believe it.  Do not discount the unseen energy around and within sports that avid fans provide that can affect the actual game.  (It’s very easy to feel in raucous football stadiums).