Going to spend the day with a friend who is changing her cancer chemotherapy and is concerned with what the reactions to the new medications might be.  It is unfortunate that the medications we take to cure disease can also be the cause of problems on their own.  She has a good attitude but it is not easy.

#63

I stand between darkness and light…

between matter and energy.

I am what connects them.

At the speed of light.

The energy comes through me

light sprays patterns…

on the darkness of my mind.

So many possibilities.

Spray enough patterns

and possibilities manifest

Into three-dimensional time and

So solid matter.

……………………………..

peace…….ag

So, here’s what I’ve been struggling with.  Who am I supposed to be?  Yes, I can get into my physical body and relate to the world that way… like we did for so long before we evolved into self awareness and thought.  Or I can relate to the light inside and go into my “I” to whatever point I can on any given day.  Or there’s some ‘I’ in-between the two extremes that can be used as a platform for my ‘I’?

It’s sort of like a video game where I’m trapped inside a clear plastic bubble hurtling through space trying to grab some of the swag at the same time I defend myself from all the other  bubbles out there who are trying to do the same thing.  Then suddenly, I discover that when I reach a certain level in the game, there is a podium I can stand at… outside of my bubble… where I can see everything that’s happening so much better than when I was inside the bubble.  From up here ‘I’ see a bigger picture and it should be easier to maneuver my bubble.

#62

Out there is still out there…

through the window in the space ship…

through the window of my self…

I am the skin of the space ship…

my thoughts, my body, my emotions, my uniqueness

they connect me with out there.

“I” am inside the space ship….

the source of power…

looking out through my I.

“I” knew it all along.

I is just learning about it.

‘I’ is the result.

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Another day of absolutely nothing coming at me from the outside. No work, no meetings, no classes, no anything I have to do.  Nothing but what I choose to do. Can I get through the day without feeling guilty for what I should do but don’t?  It’s amazing how we put all this unnecessary pressure on ourselves.

#61

We tend to think the words we use tell the truth…

It takes an evolved brain to hear sounds and put

abstract meanings on them.

But even beings without an evolved brain

can experience the feeling of being different

and separate from something else.

I may not know what you call that thing out there…

but I know it’s out there and wants to eat me.

Or I want to eat it… one of the two.

at least we agree…

I am me and

it is it.

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peace…………..ag

I keep right on thinking, but nothing gets done.  Should I do it this way… should I do it that way? Does it really matter as long as I do it?  Or does planning it out make sense?  Or am I just being lazy? Oh, the alternatives.

#60

the two worlds compliment each other

though their boundaries change…

depending on where “I” put my I.

‘I’ is what happens

when you stop

thinking about it.

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peace…………….ag

Lovely day… shaping itself.  Yoga in the morning… ballgame on TV… extra innings… time to make dinner.  Where will it go from here?  …  How about here?   At dinner… visioned a possible solution to my problem of how to put it all together.  I know… I know… I keep saying this.  At least this is where it is at the moment.

Note to self… Anytime I actually do something in the physical world, all the potentials that exist inside come out as one way… and the others potentials disappear… parallel to what quantum physicists are also finding true.  Particles cease to exist.  Waves continue.  it is like a snake shedding it’s skin.

#59

Just imagine…

The first time some being felt…

I AM

the feeling that I am separate…

from out there.

Just imagine…

The first time some being felt…

‘I’ AM

the feeling that ‘I’ am not separate…

from out there.

What a difference!

…………………………………….

peace……………ag

It is a beautiful day outside yet I have not left the house.  Last night, on TV, saw politicians and their entourage repeat meaningless buzzwords and phrases in an attempt to influence and win over voters. What a shame.  The democratic system, which started off with such good potential has become a sham.  Say anything you want.  Truth is no longer important… only market penetration counts.

#58

What is truly important?

How could we have come so far

Without realizing how much we have strayed

off the path.

…………………

peace……..ag

Hospice day, today.  I went around to see different patients who are dying… spoke to them and their families… prayed for them and their families.  I bring up the positives as I see them… no pain… a loving family… excellent care giver… quick death… whatever I can find.  Isn’t this what it is all about?   Bringing out the positive, joyful, loving feelings in each other?  Sharing those feelings. I always feel energized by the experience.

#57

No pain…

a loving family…

excellent care giver…

quick death.

How beautiful

……………….

peace…………..ag

Up bright and early to drive a friend to Sacramento for a medical procedure.  Hopefully, all goes well with her. … So I’m back, and it did.  And now I have that wonderful feeling that it’s not even 2:00 in the afternoon and there’s nothing… absolutely nothing… that I have to do for the rest of the day. Don’t tell me that being retired isn’t really cool.

#56

We all have to cross the finish line

for humanity to evolve.

Why do we think it is that important

to be the first one across.

……………….

peace……….ag

My wife takes off tonight for three weeks on the east coast with family and friends.  I know I will survive without her, but it is amazing how much of my daily life has been left in her hands.  Just another example of how working together for a common goal can allow more to be accomplished if everyone focuses on the part they do best.  The whole is truly greater than the sum of the parts.

#55

In this new way of viewing reality

you become aware…

not only of your surroundings…

but of the forces that animate those surroundings…

and the conscious energy…

that animates those forces.

You become aware of all the realities that exist…

from the universal…

to the individual…

“I AM”

…………………………………

peace…………ag

Great cartoon in yesterday’s paper… Pearls Before Swine…Goat and rat are seated at a bar.

Goat says… “After a lot of thought I think I’ve figured out something.  That the point of life is learning that there is no ‘I’.  That we are all part of one whole.  Thus, the Golden Rule – ‘Do unto others as you would have them do unto you’ because to harm others is to harm yourself.  And that’s the goal.  To have that understanding that there is no self.  That we, all of us, are one.”

Rat says… “You ate two of my peanuts.”

Goat says… “I think you are missing my point.”

Rat says… “I’m missing my @#$%^@&^ peanuts.”

Sigh!

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#54

I exist in a bubble that separates me…

from everything that is not me.

Actually, “I” exist in everything including the I in the bubble.

There is really nothing that is not “me”.

When I am inside the bubble “I” is somewhere out there.

I am unaware that I am separated from who “I” really am.

That is where ‘I’ come in. ‘I’ know I and ‘I’ know “I”.

Puts a whole new perspective on things.

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