Well, at least life is not dull.  Tomorrow is the appointment with the epilepsy doctor, then fill out the forms for the DMV to see if I can keep my driver’s license, then finish editing the Black Holes article and send it out, then hospice, keeping up with the usual stuff, and create an invite to the New Year’s Eve party.  Whoopie!!!

peace………..ag

This is incredible.  Editing a 6500 word article down to 3000 words without losing the essence.  It’s frustrating and exhilarating at the same time.  I may be losing some of my ‘clever’ writing, but it will certainly be cogent.

peace……….ag

Okay. So I didn’t send out the paper as I said I would.   But I had a great night editing it… took off 1/3 of the words down to 4600 and tightened it up.  And I changed the name to something a little more ‘scientific’.  Entering Event Horizons To Study Black Holes…  Quantum Physics Meets Phenomenology.  We’ll let the Evolution of Humanity come later.

peace…….ag

A person very close to me has just died.  David Silverman, an alter ego of mine for almost fifty years now is no longer part of my being.  The subject of my first book, David and Goliath… Round 2, he morphed into, in his own words, “a pot-smoking unemployed writer with a wife who keeps reminding him of these facts”.  Now that pot smoking is no longer a part of my environment, I won’t be seeing him around here any more.  The question is whether or not it will open up a new part of me that has been hidden all these years behind his persona.  I actually doubt that, although his absence may now allow ag and The Elder to come through a little bit louder than they might have with his influence in the mix.  We shall see.   RIP.

peace………ag

One of those days when there is nothing to do… or at least that’s what I’m thinking.  So on Monday I’m sending out Shredding to SciAm.  There, I’ve said it.  Now I have to do it.

peace……….ag

So we brought the second car up to Marin for storage and my wife drove us back in her car and I opened the letter from DMV which states that the doctor has to send medical information in to them by 12/30/2016 and only then will they evaluate to see if I lose my license or not.  So, at least as of the moment, I can still drive and I don’t have to bother my neighbor to help me visit my hospice patients or learn how to use Uber and Lyft.  Go figure.  I may be able to dodge the bullet after all.

peace…….ag

So it finally came. The DMV letter that will take away my driver’s license because of the seemingly epileptic episodes I have had over the past several years.  Apparently it will be in effect until a doctor figures out what caused them and how to control them.  Oh well.  Another opportunity to focus on what is really important.

peace…..ag

This morning I found a major update due for the software that is carrying this blog.  I clicked on it and the entire site went down.  Fortunately, my tech connection was able to fix it and I am now back blogging.  Had he not been able to fix it, my promise to blog very day for a year would have been lost… and so near the end of the year.  And yet, there was no big concern that I had not made good on a promise.  The more important issue was… What really is important?  It was a great lesson.

peace…….ag

Another day with the feeling that there is nothing that I ‘have’ to do.  So I’m sitting around, reading Amit Goswami’s, Self-Aware Universe, and Neil Douglas-Klotz’, The Hidden Gospel, and wondering how it’s all going to play out.  Of course, wondering about how it’s all going to play out is probably one of the things I’m not supposed to do.  Hey… who said it’s easy?

peace………..ag

I feel a change occurring in my life although I can’t quite put my finger on it.  Yes, I am losing weight. Yes, I am letting my hair grow.  Yes, I have stopped smoking pot. Yes, I may have epilepsy.  Yes, I may lose my driver’s license, at least temporarily till that last issue is resolved,  Yes, things are changing at the hospice where I serve as chaplain.  Yes, I am getting older and every ache and pain could be the start of something big.  Yes, the year is coming to an end and I have to decide whether to continue this blog that I started last January 1st and said I’d do for a year.  But most importantly, I’m not sure I have anything left to write until I get the things I’ve already done out in print.

Thankfully, I still believe in my three rules of life.  1. Be Happy.  2. Be Kind.  3. That’s It.  So I’ll let the universe figure out what I do next.  That’s where the ultimate decisions always came from anyway.

peace…….ag