Off to Cultural Integration Fellowship to hear talk on consciousness then back home to spend the day doing nothing,… except maybe editing the submission letter to Scientific American.  Ever onward.

peace……..ag

Amazing what one day can do.  Yesterday, after writing the blog post, I discovered that Scientific American does take unsolicited manuscripts.  So today, since they are the very inspiration for my quantum physics article, Shredding the Event Horizon, I have been composing the cover letter they want along with the manuscript and I have sent it off to my editor/sister for her thoughts.  And of course, as I was doing it, I felt energized… exactly the opposite of my feelings yesterday.  What a difference a purpose can make.

peace………..ag

I woke up this morning feeling that absolutely nothing I am doing, or want to do, has any meaning or importance. That would bother me a whole lot, except for my three rules of life…   1. Be happy… 2. Be kind… 3. That’s it.  None of which say that I’ve got to do something of importance to save the world.   Obviously, not.  If there is only one “I AM” of which I am just one little offshoot, who am I planning to save?  “ME?”  Needing to have some accomplishment left behind is just ego… and by now I hope I’m rid of mine.

peace……..ag

Hard to believe, but December is here and the challenge I took on last January 1st, to do something outside of my comfort zone is almost over.  I have, indeed, blogged everyday for eleven months and have only one more month to go.  And will I have everything ready to publish by the end of the month as well?  Stay tuned, the answer will be here thirty days from now.

peace…….ag

What a blah day.  Woke up late.  Never made it to the gym.  Never even made it outside.  Pretzels and lemonade for dinner.  Why is it that some days just sap your energy so nothing gets done? Here’s where being a retired senior really comes in handy.  There’s nothing I really have to do in the first place… except write this post, which as you can see is getting done.  So it’s not a total waste.

peace……ag

The wife is off babysitting  and I’m here alone, so I spent the evening re-editing Part One of The Handbook.  It’s looking good.  Now it’s on to parts 2 and 3 and getting it all out there on the web. Don’t think too much, fella.  Just do it.

Oh yes.  I also sent out a copy of Shredding the Event Horizon to Amit Goswami, the author of The Self-Aware Universe and an old professor of mine.  Just keep doing it.

peace……..ag

And so it continues.  Life goes on in the same direction it has been going, except for the growing number of aches, pains, and medical conditions that seem to be grabbing my attention.  I guess I must be getting older.

peace………ag

Just to clarify something from yesterday’s post when I talked about ‘living in this body’.  Obviously, that’s what I’ve been doing all along, ever since I’ve been born.  And for the first 37 years of my life, like just about everyone else on this planet, I’ve assumed that this body and mind and emotions and skills and talents that come with it was who I am.

Then, as you know, I died and experienced something else… a dimension far beyond anything I thought possible.  It was so different and so exciting that my life took a 180º turn and I began looking at this new reality.  After many years of study… which included using marijuana to help me ‘separate’ from my body… I discovered that, same as everybody else, I am really “I AM THAT I AM” and everything else about me was just adjectives.  But even knowing that, I kept smoking, because it still made it easier for me to separate from my body and experience the ‘higher’ state.

It is only now that I realize that in a couple of years or so, I’m going to be back in “I AM” with a vengeance… no physical body to hide inside.  Therefore, for these next few years I should be “I AM” looking out through these sets of filters and adjectives while I’ve got them to play with.  That’s what I mean by living in this body.  It’s a big difference from the first half of my life when I thought that was all I was.  Now I know who I really am and since this is the character I’m playing this time around, I should play it to the hilt.  That’s why I won’t smoke anymore.  It separates me from my body and I no longer want to do that.  Makes sense when you really think about it.

peace………ag

So here’s my new take on pot.  Yes, I have smoked it in the past and found it moved my ‘I’ from just being inside this piece of meat known as Anton to being the “I” at the start of and throughout the universe.  However, since I now know that’s who ‘I’ really am, there appears to be no need to continue using, since I know that as soon as this body dies, I will be in that space for a very very long period of time.  Therefore, since my “I” is eternal, I should spend the few years left in this body by living in this body.  Clearly it is both short term and what “I AM” wanted to experience enough to produce this body in the first place.   And since the pot has been provoking these apparent epileptic seizures, clearly no more smoking.  Let the new phase in my life begin.

peace……….ag